I just finished watching a sappy chick film and I cried . . . twice. I was about to watch another one when I remember that I have ice cream softening upstairs, so I pick to watch Hostel 2. I got to thinking as the movie was starting that I told myself I was going to stop looking for love, but I really haven't stopped. I keep asking myself over and over again "Why is it that I have this extreme need to be with someone?" I have yet to answer that question. I cry at the chick movies, I WATCH chick movies, I have my voicemail on a phone dating line, I check gay.com to see if maybe they have decided to give me a free month, I don't know what my problem is but I am needing a break. I feel exhausted and I don't know what the hell to do. Now I am sitting here eating soggy ice cream, watching a gore film, and I'm all alone. I need someone to tell me to stop being a woman and drink more just kidding. All right I am done bitching for the night.